There it was 630 pm and getting ready for my car service arrival. I was filled with so many emotions. My mental reactions of the unknown was in such a state of felicity mixed with massive apprehension!
I couldn't believe that this day was here and I was on my way to Scotland! I have doubted myself and lack the confidence needed for such a striking attempt in the past, but I am proud of myself for over coming this hurdle.
Just to think about how many butterflies was in my stomach as the car grew near the British Airways "Departure" gate. I wanted to tell my driver to take me back home!
Desperately for just a few flashes of seconds I wanted to jump back in that sedan and go back to that Harlem apartment and hide in a big blanket telling myself "That was just a dream Carmen".
Well I am glad I didn't, because I felt such a HUGE accomplishment all of a sudden as I entered the baggage check in line. My sisters and my parents called together on the same line to congratulate me and tell me how proud they was for me.
I held back my tears as they cheered me on through the phone. They told me how much they love and support me.
After I hung up the phone, I told myself "Right...let's go Carmen...your strong and you can do this"!! At that point, I knew it was no turning back!!!!!!!!!
Day 1...to be continued
Carmen Operetta
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